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1. 13
   Jan
   

   Went shopping today at Salvation Army for a new pair of pants. BIG MISTAKE! All the progress I thought I was making does not show up in the fitting room. I was going to take a day off tomorrow because I am getting burned out, but no more.

   The day did have its highlights, though. I really, really wanted a bakery treat today. A combination of poor sleep, anxiety about school, and overall frustration made me think I deserved a treat. I reminded myself that I would get it on Friday. I did not beat myself up over the wanting; I acknowledged it. What I did do was look forward to the act of getting a treat on Friday instead of reacting to today’s desire.

   I am starting the semester off on a positive note.  I have already printed some materials and completed the first two assignments. I am trying to stay ahead of the game. The most important thing for me right now is to get the anxiety under control. Checking Blackboard yesterday changed my mood IMMEDIATELY. That is not going to work. I have to change my attitude if I am going to have a successful semester. The anxiety and fear will go away if I just jump in and get things done. They don’t have to be perfect, they just need to meet the requirements.